两杯拿铁

喝了两杯拿铁，让我似乎失去了睡意。心里仍然有一种复杂的滋味，就像拿铁一样，有种苦中带甜，甜中带苦的滋味。今天过得还算不错，一早起身终于有了一种想整理功课的心情。于是就真地坐下来，认真地整理功课，有种真的像读书人的感觉了。
之后便买了蛋塔、去游泳，才回到旧兵营去。可能是因为人老了，竟然越游越吃力，没有像以前那样的冲劲。真希望有人能指点迷津，让我能真的发挥出自己的实力（也不想让对我有期望的朋友失望）。希望下次去游泳时能更加努力！
回到兵营有很多的感触，见到了一些老朋友和旧同事，发现了曾经拥有的幸福。虽然很多好朋友都不在这个兵营，但以前当兵时的那种感觉还是能感觉得到。比较起来，还真的蛮怀念曾经拥有过的幸福。但最让我回味的因该还是之后发生的事情。。。
出了兵营之后，又和朋友见面。本以为今天没机会与他见面，让我的心情非常复杂；心理是很想和这朋友见面，但却又怕会浪费他宝贵的时间，但我们终于还是一起共度晚餐，让我非常高兴。我们一起去买了他的手表，幸亏那家我介绍的店比别家店便宜了$10，让他没有白跑一趟。用了晚餐之后，我们还去喝咖啡。我在这个时候喝下第二杯拿铁。朋友在这个时候告诉我他看到的一种朋友分析法：朋友分为4个不同层面，第一层的朋友是完全相信朋友，并给予鼓励，就像把他当作神一样看待，对他深信不疑、第四层的朋友则是因为朋友之间有利益关系才维持朋友关系（以此类推）。他认为他还处于第三四层的阶段，因此对于身边的第一二层的朋友感到有些得愧疚。
事实上，我认为他对我是有些愧疚的，他认为我很傻，但就是因为欣赏我为朋友付出的时间才和我交朋友，让我非常感动。我非常高兴他说出“我是他朋友”的那句话，就像拿铁的那种甜甜的滋味。我真希望这杯甜甜的拿铁永远都喝不完。
但拿铁还是有咖啡的一种苦味。我还是感到非常惭愧，我还是不能完全做到“无条件的爱”（请看我的博客2）。我认为自己还是很自私的，我还是一直想见到这个朋友，与他再看多一场电影，吃多一顿晚餐。但我清楚的知道，这样做是在浪费他的时间，他有宏图大志，需要很多的时间，而我的渴望只会剥夺他的时间。这种行为与“无条件的爱”背道而驰，这样的感觉为甜蜜的拿铁增加了浓密的苦涩。真希望自己没那么自私。。。



魔鬼曰：你已经做了朋友应该做的。要求一点点的回报是理所当然的，其实不应该为一个没有同等回报的朋友付出这么多。


天使曰：你真的应该抛开那自私的想法，让朋友有更多的时间实现自己的宏图大志，只要真的做到"无条件的爱"才能让他得到他的快乐也能让自己得到真正的幸福。离”无条件的爱”你还差得好远好远。

an unexpected saturday

Last Saturday was one of the more memorable Saturdays I will consider. Initially I thought that that Saturday will be a bad Saturday (something make me feel bad about that day). But luckily it didn’t came out that way.
I went out for lunch with my friend that day, it was then that I know that my friend had trick me about a course he was going, (the course is suppose to be later, he told me some date earlier). It was really a bit annoying knowing the fact that I had been tricked and enforcing myself to go on vegetarian these few days just to ensure his safety (I was hoping going on vegetarian could accumulate some merits for him). But knowing that he is well makes me feel more at ease that being annoyed. One of the more touching thing is that when we go for lunch, he ordered my food for me (it’s minced pork noodles). I am really very touch by the actions, he rarely did that for me, I am really touched. Despite I was on vegetarian that day, I still ate that bowl of noodles.
We went for dinner and movie that night also. Dinner was “Fish & Co.” and we went to watch “Stardust” (I strongly recommend this movie!). It’s donkey years since we last watch a movie together. It really brighten up one’s day watching a movie with a friend whom you are not able to contact for a long time. Maybe, it’s the movie itself that makes me feel happy also. The movie is so touching and humorous. One of the best thing I learn from the movie is that love is unconditional giving. I guess I have always neglected this important point in my life, providing friend with a conditional love. I believe I have not been giving enough for such a good friend and constantly expecting him follow the route I think it’s the safest for him. But little did I notice that this is conditional love. What a friend should do is not to stop your friend from doing what he desire, but to always be behind them and give them the full support that they need. I guess starting from today, I will start learning what is unconditional love and practice it. It's really a memorable day, I just hope I will remember this day forever.

开场白。。。

开了这个博客这么多天，还是第一次开始写。心情是复杂的，总觉得自己有些落伍，到了博客盛行的几亿年后才来写这些有的没的。最糟糕的是，竟然在最繁忙时刻写了这堆“东西”哈哈！

最初开设这博客的想法，是因为看了“U”频道的连续剧《致父亲母亲》，有了很多感触，才决心设立这个博客。我想像剧里的“安老师”一样把每天可以记录的大小事情都记录下来。想象一下,假如不把生命中重要的事记录下来,人身会是多么的无趣。

（《致父亲母亲》的合照）

老天爷似乎也想让我写出一些更精彩的作品，竟然在我设立博客的短短几天，让我经历了那么多的起伏。

因此我将会用心写出我人生的最精彩。希望接下来的人身会因为我的记录而变得更加精彩。

等待吧博客！哈哈！